This post is not illness-related at all, but I'm having a blue day.
I've had what you might call a boyfriend (although I hate that word) for the past few months. It was good, but complicated and now, over.
I'll be 27 in September, and believe me, I know that's still young. Lately, though, I can't help feeling like most of my friends have got their ducks in a row, or at least have asked the ducks to begin forming a nice single-file line. My ducks, meanwhile, are still in their eggs, and I don't even know where the nest is.
What if I never even find the fricking nest?!
I'll be 27 and just starting a school program that's going to take me 3 years, plus a year of articling. 27 and single. 27 and only vaguely aware of what I want out of life, and not really sure what any of it looks like. I've realized only lately that I do want the house, the husband, even the baby. All of that feels impossibly far away.
I feel light-years behind everybody else. Wah.
Update: AND I just got back from signing papers at the bank for a holy-shit-enormous student loan. I would officially like to switch lives with my dog for a while: all he has to worry about is carrying people's shoes around the house and making sure his tennis balls never, ever leave his line of sight. I could deal with that.
6 comments:
Hang in there. You're making wise choices, you have a plan for the immediate part of your life that will pay dividends for the rest of your life. Think about how many friends look at you and think you know exactly what you want while they're still clueless. I know it's frustrating right now, but, trust me, it'll work out.
You're making the right moves. Don't worry.
Sorry to hear you're down, though.
I didn't get married until I was in my 30's. And don't have any regrets, either.
I hope you are feeling less blue today. :)
I think anytime you are about to make a big change in your life, it is difficult. School is a big change. Hang in there.
Hi Helen, Hope you're feeling better today. Breakups are always rough, but I didn't find the right man until I was 30. I got married the first time when I was 24 - so you've avoid that crappy first part I had and you'll hopefully find Mr Right soon and not have to waste too much time on Mr Wrong like I did. ;o)
Oh, and my brother's just graduated with a 1st from university, this summer. He's 41 - so you're right, 27 is NOT old!
Some days you have ups and some days you have downs, as long as you are moving forwards. Its all part of life.
Mr. Cufflinks
Thank you, everyone. I am feeling a little less blue (and very, very grateful for all of my friends - you included!) every day.
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