Thank you, everyone, for your messages after that last post. I'm so happy to be catching up on my favourite blogs again.
I don't feel like myself right now. My whole body - appetite, cycle, everything - is out of wack after the general anaesthetic. My throat hurts and my voice is weak from the breathing tube they inserted during the surgery, which lasted three and a half hours. My hands and wrists are sore, I suppose from IVs and my arterial line. And then there's that wonderful combination of nausea and hunger. All I want to eat are popsicles.
On top of that, I've been so anxious since the surgery. I suppose I just feel overwhelmed by all the decisions of the last month, and all the physical weirdness this week. I've been waking up with my heart racing and a knot in my stomach.
Everything feels gross.
I think I'll feel better once I've been back to the hospital on Tuesday and they're removed the sticky, itchy dressing I've been wearing on my chest since Monday. I think it will feel good to go back to work, too.
I'm going to try some gentle yoga and meditation. I want to feel like myself again.