So I'm a second year law student.
It's so much better than being a first year law student! My schedule is flexible, I no longer spend every day with the same 15 people (even if they're great, that's a lot of enforced togetherness), and I get to choose my own courses. This term I'm taking Aboriginal Law, Intellectual Property, Real Estate and Administrative Law. Next term I've got Media Law, Advanced Intellectual Property, Trusts and Civil Procedure. I'm beginning to narrow my focus to the various forms of property law - real estate, creative works, media, aboriginal land claims - and it feels good to be making my own choices. Last year I felt babysat. This year, I feel much more independent.
Uncertainty used to scare me, but somewhere along the line it has started to feel the opposite. It's somehow comforting to think that I can't plan everything or see into the future. I turned 28 this week, and I could never have predicted much of what has happened over the past year. Some of it has not been so great - I had absolutely no idea I'd get a shock from my defibrillator or need it replaced, and no idea that my hips would get so bad. But I also couldn't have imagined getting through the shock and the surgery, or feeling excited and content again after my breakup last summer. I'm even dating someone - someone I knew years before - and I definitely didn't foresee that.
When I worry about my future with RA, I remind myself how much things can change in a year. I can't predict how I'll feel or what treatments will be available to me, but I think I can be confident that, whatever happens, I'll have what it takes to adapt and respond. That's all I can do, but I think it's enough.
So things are good. Hips not great, but swimming a lot. School stressful but interesting. Weather starting to turn.
Happy fall everyone.